I've decided to back myself off.
Maybe I'm better off myself. With love.
Moved.
Find me.
Monday, September 28, 2009
I've decided to back myself off.
Maybe I'm better off myself. With love.
Moved.
Find me.
Saturday, September 26, 2009
I really miss the old us.I'm so sad. I feel like crying.
I'm sorry. But it seems a little too late.
I miss you so much. Please come back.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
Oh hell yes, I woke up late today. Like totally very late. An hour before school ends, infact. Haha. Mum was very upset with me. School called, but thank god no one answered. Because I know that it would be the freaking school counsellor that is calling. Phew.
I really need to buck up. I missed out on alot of school work. Am going to study with Mira tomorrow. I need her. Like totally. And now suddenly I'm starting to freak out about my art. Like omg, what happened to my art?! I decided to skip the animation drawings. And now my art classmates have started on the process diary for EOY. Whoaaa, deep shit deep shit. Now I need Ayul too. Muahaha. Ayul, if you are reading this, you should remember: I ASKED YOU TO PHOTOCOPY FOR ME THE EXAM PAPER OKIE!
Now, I am going to bath. I spent 2 hours shopping online. Muehehe. Oh no, addictive addictive. Must buy chocolate. Now I shall call Daddy for kinder bueno tonight. Ahh yes. That's much better. Alrightey, that's it for today. Might update later on cus my six sense is telling me that I might be bored later on. Hmm. Bye.
I really need to buck up. I missed out on alot of school work. Am going to study with Mira tomorrow. I need her. Like totally. And now suddenly I'm starting to freak out about my art. Like omg, what happened to my art?! I decided to skip the animation drawings. And now my art classmates have started on the process diary for EOY. Whoaaa, deep shit deep shit. Now I need Ayul too. Muahaha. Ayul, if you are reading this, you should remember: I ASKED YOU TO PHOTOCOPY FOR ME THE EXAM PAPER OKIE!
Now, I am going to bath. I spent 2 hours shopping online. Muehehe. Oh no, addictive addictive. Must buy chocolate. Now I shall call Daddy for kinder bueno tonight. Ahh yes. That's much better. Alrightey, that's it for today. Might update later on cus my six sense is telling me that I might be bored later on. Hmm. Bye.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
I'm a happy happy girl now. Can't wait, my jacket has already arrived!! But it's inside the postbox, so must wait for Daddy to return home. He already promise me to check the box, if not I will get madddddd. Hehehe.
School sucks. I hate school. But I need to study. Guess what, I just got the exams timetable. Lol. Was supposed to go study with Mira, but I had to ditch her since I am pokai. Suprised? Yes. My raya money all gone. Whoaaaaa.
Everybody noticed my black shoes today. So cute! Eh wait, it's not black today. It's navy blue! Muahaha. In the morning, it looked cute on me. But I think that it's starting to look like some kasut jepun sesat, just like what Sister said. Sad. But nevermind, must not regret must not regret!
Before I end, I shall hope that Bf won't enter DB. Mampus, I can already imagine myself if that happens. Die die die. I miss you sooo much bbbbbbbbb even though I am so angry with you now. If you are reading this, I really mishhhh you soooo much. Nak hug?! Sad. Sad. Sad.
Mushy eh? Sorry la geng. Adios berambossssss! Sayonarrrrrra, peace.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
LEFTOVER PICS
And btw, me and Bf got a new watch together. Cute eh?!
And also two very cute pair of sneaks for me!! Now can kick my Bf already!! Best!!
Monday, September 21, 2009
I FEEL SO DRENCHED WITH ALL MY PROBLEMS.
I AM SO SICK AND TIRED OF MEEEEEEEEE!!
Please let me enjoy today.
Selamat hari raya everyone :)
Pictures up soon.
Friday, September 18, 2009
I am not okay.
I just need some time to clear things off my mind.
One another hand,
It hurts so much when someone doesn't appreciate you.
I tried so hard to change, and there you are, with your ego.
I'm hurt.
Yet you don't know what to do.
I'm so angry.
Fuck my life.
Will be away for a short while.
Thursday, August 17, 2009
Because he's been contantly reminding me that he loves me
even when I'm sleeping with my mouth wide open and snoring.
I love you. So much.
:)
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Yesterday was... awesome. Well, though I had to wait for such a long time for the boys to reach Bedok. Grr. Met up with Bf, Khai and Fauzi(his friends) @ Bedok interchange. We proceeded to Sempang Bedok immediately right after that. You know, I'm very kanciong. Always thinking that Sempang would be full, even 1 hour before break-fast time. Hehe.
We reached there way earlier than what we expected. Haha. We didn't have much for break-fast, yeah because we ate already =,= Tak puase!! Hehe. I got excuse, but the boys? Wah play cheat la hor. Hahaha. After our dinner, we headed to Geylang bazaar. Afraid of getting lost(as always), I kept on holding Bf's hands. Well, I did even pull his shirt when people tried to go in between us. Busted eh?!
I dropped by A'niz awhile to check on Mira and Tasha while the guys were eating and smoking outside Singapore Post. I gave Tasha a surprise. Hehe. She was like, "Eh, Nini!" Yeah it's okay, I know you miss me right. Haha. Then I decided to hunt for Mira. And when I found her, I jumped in the middle of.. the crowd?! Like omg I jumped infront of guys!! =,= Nevermind. I really felt so happy when I saw Mira. I missed her alot, even though we just met and spent time together last week. Lol. I headed out after that to search for the guys again, and we made a move at 10. Bazaar was boring. Like I said, I'm getting bored of Sempang and Geylang.. Banyak M&Ms ah shial *inserts minah's pathetic voice*
Took 30 back to Bedok, and then parted ways with the guys. Well, I had such a fun day with Bf and his friends. We got along well together, in all. Haha. Just that me and Bf had a little tiff here and there. But nevertheless, we're always good together in the end. Haha. Bf gave me a box of ferrero roche chocs anyway for our 9 month anni. I've been longing for that after 7 months of his last ferrero roche for me okay. Hehe. He likes the gift that I gave him. For the ones who wants to get a sneak peak at the drawing, I'll post it up next week alright? I'll get my Bf to MMS me the pic or something. Cus I forgot to snap a pic of it. Hehe ^ ^v
Alright, up next, photos.
And here's the results of being shagged after squeezing in between the crowds:
We reached there way earlier than what we expected. Haha. We didn't have much for break-fast, yeah because we ate already =,= Tak puase!! Hehe. I got excuse, but the boys? Wah play cheat la hor. Hahaha. After our dinner, we headed to Geylang bazaar. Afraid of getting lost(as always), I kept on holding Bf's hands. Well, I did even pull his shirt when people tried to go in between us. Busted eh?!
I dropped by A'niz awhile to check on Mira and Tasha while the guys were eating and smoking outside Singapore Post. I gave Tasha a surprise. Hehe. She was like, "Eh, Nini!" Yeah it's okay, I know you miss me right. Haha. Then I decided to hunt for Mira. And when I found her, I jumped in the middle of.. the crowd?! Like omg I jumped infront of guys!! =,= Nevermind. I really felt so happy when I saw Mira. I missed her alot, even though we just met and spent time together last week. Lol. I headed out after that to search for the guys again, and we made a move at 10. Bazaar was boring. Like I said, I'm getting bored of Sempang and Geylang.. Banyak M&Ms ah shial *inserts minah's pathetic voice*
Took 30 back to Bedok, and then parted ways with the guys. Well, I had such a fun day with Bf and his friends. We got along well together, in all. Haha. Just that me and Bf had a little tiff here and there. But nevertheless, we're always good together in the end. Haha. Bf gave me a box of ferrero roche chocs anyway for our 9 month anni. I've been longing for that after 7 months of his last ferrero roche for me okay. Hehe. He likes the gift that I gave him. For the ones who wants to get a sneak peak at the drawing, I'll post it up next week alright? I'll get my Bf to MMS me the pic or something. Cus I forgot to snap a pic of it. Hehe ^ ^v
Alright, up next, photos.
And here's the results of being shagged after squeezing in between the crowds:
Tuesday, September 12, 2009
Happy 9th month anniversary, B. I love you.
It's 7:25AM in the morning. It's been 8 hours straight, yes straight, that I've been working on a drawing of me and him. I chose a very cute photo of us, but never expected it to be difficult to draw. But nevermind, since I love you, I won't give up on it. God screw it. My eyebags are growing.
I can't wait to hit the sacks. Waaaaa so sleeeeeepyyyyyyy!!
It's 7:25AM in the morning. It's been 8 hours straight, yes straight, that I've been working on a drawing of me and him. I chose a very cute photo of us, but never expected it to be difficult to draw. But nevermind, since I love you, I won't give up on it. God screw it. My eyebags are growing.
I can't wait to hit the sacks. Waaaaa so sleeeeeepyyyyyyy!!
Friday, September 11, 2009
I feel kinda sad. Or maybe, I'm really sad. Mira, if you're reading this, I hope you'll cheer up. If you have already did, then I'm sorry if I wasn't there or was being cautious enough to ask you about what happened. I had always wanted to be a good friend to you, being there for you always and such. But it sometimes gotta hurt when I'm always the last one to know about it all, or maybe, left clueless.
Well, it's okay. Cheer up BabyG. I'm always here for you if you need me. Luvv.
Friday, September 11, 2009
Does anybody know where to get nice attractive Chanel earrings in Town? =,= I bought one the other day (wow my first attractive buy huh) and it irritated my ears. I want studs, not those dangling types. Any help? Oh, original Chanel please!
And can someone please stop me from impulsive buying. God.
And can someone please stop me from impulsive buying. God.
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Okay, so it's been such a long time since I did a proper update, so I'm gonna spice it up now. Hehe. I made a last-minute plan to meet Bf over at his place. I had to wear the same dress I wore yesterday, since my shorts went missing. I didn't know where I threw it at. Gotta search for it soon. Anyways, I spent some time over there, and gosh, he took such a long time to get ready. Like mak nenek sia my baby. Lol. Today I made him look uber cute. His hair was messy in wax, and his new pair of denims were kinda tight. He was my 'minah-tappered' for the day. Lek la baby, satu hari je. Haha.
So @ 5 in the evening, we made a move to Bugis. I wanted to go to the library. Not pathetic okay. I was craving for some books to read. Hehehe. The fatty always got reason before going in the library. First, must smoke. Then the next reason was, "I'm sleepy la b." Sleepy my ass la fatty. Hurhur. We just spent 15 minutes in that place, and he went mumbling. And when he got bored, he started to play hide and seek with me. Mampus, dektu nakal, tak boleh angkat!! Panas ajeeee. Lol.
Oh yah, and in the end we didn't get a chance to borrow some books cus Daddy has to pay a fine. Mine? Don't ask, it's over $100++ already. Haha. I laughed hard when I saw the books that Bf had to pay fines for. One of the books was, "How do you talk to animals." WHAT THE HELL?! AHAHAHA I'M SO SORRY B, IT'S JUST SO FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay so after we left the place, he was craving to smoke. Walande, that guy ahhh... *rolls eyes* We headed to Bugis junction after that. Thought of eating @ Long John, but it was packed. And over there, I saw my used-to-be workmate, Atika. I wanted to approach her, but I'm just afraid that she might not remember me. Hurhur. So yeah, we had takeaways, and then we cabbed down to my place.
Had a quick dinner @ somewhere around my area, and then we went home. Yay B, I had a good day with you. See you on Saturday okay fatty. And yah, I'm going to bazaar again. But before that, dinner @ Sempang Bedok. Wahpiang ley, I think I'm getting sick of Sempang and Geylang. Here, there, typicals everywhere. Aku boley naik mabok ah shial *insert pathetic minah voice*
So @ 5 in the evening, we made a move to Bugis. I wanted to go to the library. Not pathetic okay. I was craving for some books to read. Hehehe. The fatty always got reason before going in the library. First, must smoke. Then the next reason was, "I'm sleepy la b." Sleepy my ass la fatty. Hurhur. We just spent 15 minutes in that place, and he went mumbling. And when he got bored, he started to play hide and seek with me. Mampus, dektu nakal, tak boleh angkat!! Panas ajeeee. Lol.
Oh yah, and in the end we didn't get a chance to borrow some books cus Daddy has to pay a fine. Mine? Don't ask, it's over $100++ already. Haha. I laughed hard when I saw the books that Bf had to pay fines for. One of the books was, "How do you talk to animals." WHAT THE HELL?! AHAHAHA I'M SO SORRY B, IT'S JUST SO FUNNY. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
Okay so after we left the place, he was craving to smoke. Walande, that guy ahhh... *rolls eyes* We headed to Bugis junction after that. Thought of eating @ Long John, but it was packed. And over there, I saw my used-to-be workmate, Atika. I wanted to approach her, but I'm just afraid that she might not remember me. Hurhur. So yeah, we had takeaways, and then we cabbed down to my place.
Had a quick dinner @ somewhere around my area, and then we went home. Yay B, I had a good day with you. See you on Saturday okay fatty. And yah, I'm going to bazaar again. But before that, dinner @ Sempang Bedok. Wahpiang ley, I think I'm getting sick of Sempang and Geylang. Here, there, typicals everywhere. Aku boley naik mabok ah shial *insert pathetic minah voice*
Thursday, September 10, 2009
I AM SO ANGRY !!!
OKAY LET ME EXPLAIN.....
I EXCHANGED PHONE WITH MY BF.
HIS PHONE IS MORE OF TO THE GAME-TYPE.
OKAYLA, LITTLE MEMORY SPACE, ALSO NEVERMIND.
NO NO, I'M NOT ANGRY WITH HIM.
I'M SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. AND MAYBE MY SISTER. AND MAYBE THE PHONE TOO?!
YESTERDAY I LOOKED SO NICE WITH MY 2-HOURS OF HARDWORK MAKEUP!
I TOOK 13 PHOTOS IN ALL, AND I BLUETOOTHED IT ALL TO THIS PHONE.
IT STATED "UNABLE TO READ PHOTO" SO I THOUGHT IT CAN'T BE PREVIEWED.
THEN NOW, NO PICTURES. EXCEPT FOR TWO.
SISTER HAS ALREADY DELETED MY PHOTOS.
WHY OH WHY SHE DOESN'T LIKE KEEPING MY PHOTOS?!
UWEKKKKKKKKKKK I'M SO MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Nevermind, today must try again.
Saturday, am getting back my phone. Muahahahaha to boyfriend.
EH MY TEETH SMALL MEH ?!
OKAY LET ME EXPLAIN.....
I EXCHANGED PHONE WITH MY BF.
HIS PHONE IS MORE OF TO THE GAME-TYPE.
OKAYLA, LITTLE MEMORY SPACE, ALSO NEVERMIND.
NO NO, I'M NOT ANGRY WITH HIM.
I'M SO ANGRY WITH MYSELF. AND MAYBE MY SISTER. AND MAYBE THE PHONE TOO?!
YESTERDAY I LOOKED SO NICE WITH MY 2-HOURS OF HARDWORK MAKEUP!
I TOOK 13 PHOTOS IN ALL, AND I BLUETOOTHED IT ALL TO THIS PHONE.
IT STATED "UNABLE TO READ PHOTO" SO I THOUGHT IT CAN'T BE PREVIEWED.
THEN NOW, NO PICTURES. EXCEPT FOR TWO.
SISTER HAS ALREADY DELETED MY PHOTOS.
WHY OH WHY SHE DOESN'T LIKE KEEPING MY PHOTOS?!
UWEKKKKKKKKKKK I'M SO MADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.
Nevermind, today must try again.
Saturday, am getting back my phone. Muahahahaha to boyfriend.
EH MY TEETH SMALL MEH ?!
Tuesday, September 08, 2009
Nini Azuwera is angry.
Damn that motherfuckin situation.
On another piece of note, I love my boyfriend.
We are turning 9 this Saturday ^ ^v
I want coklat. Yumyum.
Some girls really think that they're some big catch.
And by that, they blog about almost everything.
What captured my attention most was the way they blog.
Ehwah ehwah, nak berbual pasal rembat la konon.
Nak rase tangan ringan? NI RASE PELENGKUNG AKU NI!!
Skali aku bagi flying kick baru tau.
HAIYO, KITE SEMUA UMUR MASIH STENGAH JANGUNG.
NAK BERBUAL GITU MACAM BUAT APA SIHHHH.
KITA HARUS HABISKAN PELAJARAN DULU SIHHHHH.
Masih nak rase pelengkung Nini Azuwera tak?!
Biar tapak tangan kecik. Jangan main-main.
Tapak ni da banyak tampar bende. Nak try?
Monday, September 07, 2009
Life sure is hard. But I'm enjoying it now. Ape nak jadi, jadi je lah ok. I've washed my hands off almost everything. I'm relying on myself now. I think that there's way alot more for me to explore. Haha. But nah, I kicked the 'ice' habit. Sucks sia.
So how have I been managing my depression? Pretty well. I can't wait to tell Dr Sylvia about my progress. I bet she must be happy for me. Hehe. And what about my sickness? I'm getting better now. No more fever. So, you guys wanna know what caused my sickness? My vomitting. After every vomit, my tempreature will rise. Like the other day, it reached 40 degree celsius. Terror eh?!
So now, I'm just having cough. I'm suffering. I haven't been smoking for the past few days. Wait, I just did last Saturday, and that was when my cough became worser. So now, cannot play-play anymore =,= Oh yes, I also lost some weight. It's not quite a good news cus it's an unhealthy sign for me to lose 3kg in a week. 3kg is supposed to be lost in a month, not a week. But nevermind, dah kurus, ape nak buat ^ ^v If only I was tall, I think I'd look very slim now. But too bad, I'm just not that tall..
B, I love you but sometimes you're such a pain in the ass. I'm angry and busy now. Nak tengok movie. Dah ade free time baru call I. Bye gemok.
Ok gua mau lepak go dengan MiraraFly. Hahaha. Chalo behteh.
So how have I been managing my depression? Pretty well. I can't wait to tell Dr Sylvia about my progress. I bet she must be happy for me. Hehe. And what about my sickness? I'm getting better now. No more fever. So, you guys wanna know what caused my sickness? My vomitting. After every vomit, my tempreature will rise. Like the other day, it reached 40 degree celsius. Terror eh?!
So now, I'm just having cough. I'm suffering. I haven't been smoking for the past few days. Wait, I just did last Saturday, and that was when my cough became worser. So now, cannot play-play anymore =,= Oh yes, I also lost some weight. It's not quite a good news cus it's an unhealthy sign for me to lose 3kg in a week. 3kg is supposed to be lost in a month, not a week. But nevermind, dah kurus, ape nak buat ^ ^v If only I was tall, I think I'd look very slim now. But too bad, I'm just not that tall..
B, I love you but sometimes you're such a pain in the ass. I'm angry and busy now. Nak tengok movie. Dah ade free time baru call I. Bye gemok.
Ok gua mau lepak go dengan MiraraFly. Hahaha. Chalo behteh.
Thursday, September 03, 2009
Do you know how sad I am now..
I have no one to turn to.
I lost everyone..
If only I could have done my tests.
If only I wasn't down with this illness.
If only I could have make up for every single mistakes.
This sucks.
I'm very upset.. I'm so dissapointed..
This blog is going to turn mundane.
I'm so sorry. Maybe I'm just not myself.
I wish to be a new me soon.
And hope that everyone will.. just appreciate me.
Why is Nini Azuwera like this now? Oh because she doesn't have a life.
WHY THE FUCK DID I MAKE THAT WRONG MOVE.
WHY THE FUCK DID I CHOOSE THE RUIN MY LIFE.
WELL, EVEN THOUGH IT WAS JUST FOR A SHORT WHILE..
I guess I'm gonna remain in the dark.
Boyfriend, if you are reading this, I'm sorry about last night.
I tried my best to make you happy..
Guess I drained it all.
I have no one to turn to.
I lost everyone..
If only I could have done my tests.
If only I wasn't down with this illness.
If only I could have make up for every single mistakes.
This sucks.
I'm very upset.. I'm so dissapointed..
This blog is going to turn mundane.
I'm so sorry. Maybe I'm just not myself.
I wish to be a new me soon.
And hope that everyone will.. just appreciate me.
Why is Nini Azuwera like this now? Oh because she doesn't have a life.
WHY THE FUCK DID I MAKE THAT WRONG MOVE.
WHY THE FUCK DID I CHOOSE THE RUIN MY LIFE.
WELL, EVEN THOUGH IT WAS JUST FOR A SHORT WHILE..
I guess I'm gonna remain in the dark.
Boyfriend, if you are reading this, I'm sorry about last night.
I tried my best to make you happy..
Guess I drained it all.
Tuesday, September 01, 2009
I'm so depressed now. Plus my fever. My doctor just gave me medications. 39 degree celcius, please send me to the hospital instead of allowing me to rot at home. I'm shivering. I'm on a whole week MC. Only god knows how I feel. Not about the MC issue, it's about how I feel.
ONLY my boyfriend was there to say: I know you are strong b.
And because of me, he's gotten sick. I hope he will get well soon. You've sacrifised too much for me. Ok, am off to the toilet. Bye.
Oh yes, no updates till I'm well.
ONLY my boyfriend was there to say: I know you are strong b.
And because of me, he's gotten sick. I hope he will get well soon. You've sacrifised too much for me. Ok, am off to the toilet. Bye.
Oh yes, no updates till I'm well.
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